Abstract: This study provides insight into the experience of being an ICU nurse and relative of a critically ill patient. Analysis of data from interviews of four ICU nurses who had experienced having a family member admitted to ICU brought up several themes. These included: a nurses' nightmare, knowing and not knowing, feeling torn, and gaining deeper insight and new meaning. Recommendations for organisational support for ICU nurse/relatives, and education for staff are made, based on the findings.
